Moving..

Salam everyone...

wahh, cepat betol masa berlalu. We're gonna start fasting tomorrow. So... with this opportunity, I'd like to wish you all... Salam Ramadhan and semoga ibadah kita akan diterima oleh-Nya. Beribadah la ngan ikhlas, surely the reward will be double-triple. Remember, ibadah tu is not just limited to solat and puasa, but every single things we do, as long as it is done dengan niat yg baekkk...

Oh yeah, actually... I'd like to let u guys knw that I wont write in this page ANYMORE! Ha, but doesnt mean I'm gonna stop writing *or bebel selebeynya... hikss*. I have moved to...

http://mylifejourneymystories.blogspot.com/

As I have written earlier, I will stop this Melbourne diary.. coz I have completed my studies at Melbourne. And InsyaAllah, as soon as I get a place *dunno where yet - maybe Canada, maybe US* I'll open up a new diary pulaksss...

So, this will my last entry in here.... To all loyal visitors and friends, I welcome you guys to my new page... JUST CLICK HERE


Bila Eena membebel: Melbourne experience is now part of my memories...

Salam everyone...

I dunno if there is anyone visiting this page... but for those who did, thanks a million. And sorry... for a long silence. I have arrived Malaysia safely and happily two weeks ago after completing my masters study at Melbourne, Australia. Meaning... no more stories from Melbourne *owhhh I miss Melbourne already.. especially the cold weather, hangat sungguh Msia skrg... sob sob*.

Ready to leave Melbourne... See, Puteh pun sedey nak cry cry.

Half-way between Melbourne and KL

"Welcome to Malaysia" - Thanks. Akhirnya sampai after 8hours flight. Adoyaii... saket tongkeng.. Opss!.

Safely kembali pada keluarga...

And ever since I have completed my study in Melbourne, this page is no longer relevant for me to update more about my daily life and experience. What I have decided... is to open a new page and name it something... about me in Msia. And later, when I fly again and continue my study *maybe Canada, maybe U.S*, I will open a new page entitle... My Canada/U.S. Experience lakkk.. Occay la kan?

For the time being, I dun have much time and access to go online. But in a day or two, I will open the new page I have said just now. My experience in Msia so far?? Biasa la cik Eena... keje nya, jalan2 habiskan duit jaaa. Makan and traveling. Will tell you guys more in my new page. But for now, I guess it is worth to say dat I am fine and in good health. And so my family... I'm glad dat I have time to take care of my dad and bro at home. In the mean time, I am also busy with Ph.D. application. Lotssaaa things in hands actually. And mayb more interesting, tis Melbourne graduate are going to turun padang n tolong kat pasar Ramadhann.... tu diaaa..! Jeng jeng jeng... just wait for the update k.

Till then... salam.

Bila Eena membebel: rindu nak bebel2... takpe takpe... nnt kan je la... hikss!~

Flying home...

Passenger has confirmed.

Airline: Malaysia Airlines MH148

Aircraft: Boeing 777-200/200ER

Yup! I finally confirmed my flight ticket to be going home FOR GOOD. Alhamdulillah.

2 years just went flash. I experienced all the ups and downs along the journey to achieve my masters degree, away from home and in a such great varsity. And alhamdulillah, I finally make it.

I cant stop thanking everyone... for every single contribution to my success. Tho it is not as much big success compared to others who make such a great name in the academic world, I still owe everyone gratitude and thanks for being backbone to the completion of masters study. Wasnt easy but with all the supports and courages, I finally make it. If I wanna name everyone, it will be a very long list. But sincerely, I thanks everyone... yup, everyone! Family members, closed friends, relatives, colleagues, roomate(s), friends, enemies (if there's any), blogmates, or whoever you are. THANKS A MILLION.

One thing for sure... this is only the beginning. I have to start thinking of my Ph.D. project and looking for an exact varsity to do my doctoral study. Hopefully, with everyone's pray and supports, I will be accepted into the varsity I dream of all this while. InsyaAllah.

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Life is getting tougher. I may be a good student. I may be an excellent academician. I may be an inspiration among my colleagues. But life always been a great challenge. It's rarely get any easier. Sometimes, I dun really understand the way this world and the people around me works. I may not be a fully functional friend or in other words, not fully humane-function. I have to admit I am weak in the matter of love. I completed my masters degree with an excellent score in my thesis - studying about complex love relationship. But personally, I am very poor in experiencing love and personal feelings, myself. Some says I am too secretive *betol ke description nih?*. But yup, I still prefer to be single. I cannot handle love and intimate relationship at the moment. Or, maybe it is just not the right time yet. Or, maybe I havent met my Mr. Right yet. But 1 thing for sure, I am not selective person. Neither fuss in choosing my partner. it may not be accurate, but I kinda feel tired with love and serious relationship.

So, for those who keep asking me... Balik ni nak kawen ke? Sapa your bf? Nape takde bf? Tak rasa nak kawen ke? Tak takut takde org nak ngan u ke nnt? All I cud say... "insyaAllah, ada jodoh takkan ke mana. Semua tu keje Allah". For the time being, I just feel like wanna concentrate on my study.

Special note to those who concern; From deep inside my heart, I am truly sorry... I may not be a great lover. And sorry... for not being the best and for making you upset. I am just an ordinary person, sometimes makes mistakes and I cannot satisfy everyone with my doings.

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu...
Kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku...
Kau lah cinta sejati

Ooh...

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Ooh...

Dihimpit dicengkam rindu ini
Gerimis duka ku
Menggamit kenangan silam
Resah dan pilu menghampiri

Sunyinya malamku kelam
Pedih kemelut cinta
Dingin kelu bicara
Tuk mengungkap rindu

Sayang ku mungkir pada kejujuranmu
Menolak segala bahgia dihadapanku
Kasihku mungkir pada kata janjiku
Berlari aku jauh dari cintamu
Ku kesali

Dihanyut dilambung ombak lara
Sepiku berkelana
Melayari jiwa nestapa
Menggagahi rasa kesayuan

Leburlah harapan cinta
Namun kesetiaanmu
Kugenggam bagai hukuman
Mengheret langkahku

Maafkan daku
Kekasih hati cinta kita berakhir
Maafkan daku
Kerna ku memungkirinya

Maafkan daku
Kekasih hati cinta jadi begini
Maafkan daku
Ku mungkir bahagia

For now... I choose my study.
For now... I can only sorry for not being able to love.
For now... I can only admit how much you hates me.

But I also hope,
1 day you will forgive me.
1 day you will understand the reason I'm doing this.
1 day you will know I am not as bad as you think I am.


and..


I am really sorry.


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Tomorrow, at about this time... I'll be home already. No more Melbourne cold. No more accessible trams to get to the city. And perhaps, no more speedy internet connection. I just hope, I cud figure out something so that I can go online from home. I really need to figure it out coz I depend so much on internet to deal with lotssaa things, including my Ph.D. application.

Till then, I wont be able to update this blog, or online. It may takes sometime... and how long it's gonna be, I have no idea.

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Goodbye Melbourne... Goodbye everyone. Gonna miss lottssaa things about Melbourne.

Bila Eena membebel: Huhu, tetiba rasa len macam lak...

Settled with Univ. of Melb

I finally got good response from the faculty's admin office yesterday evening. So now, I'm just waiting for USM to issue my flight ticket. I am surely they will do something soon as I have bombarded her email (Pn. Nina, USM HR office) with tonnes of urgent notes inquiring for flight tix. Nasib laa, sapa suh macam2 kan. Hiksss. As all the admin thingy cleared, I finally see my name in the graduation list.

confirm sudah Cik Eena ngan awards masters degree in Criminology yg byk org tak tahu apa kejadah punya course kan. hikssss~

Ha, I knw some of you feels tertipu ngan my pic in the gown. Then cmana baru dapat call for graduation ceremony lak kan? Haaa, let me tell ya ONCE AGAIN... I was purposely hiring the gown for photoshoot session coz I cannot stay any longer and wait for the graduation ceremony. My dad is not very well and I believe he needs me more. And ofcoz I dun mind at all coz I already have hundreds of pics in the gown. Gila la cik Eena kalau berposing kan. Puas ati!

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I finally manage to organize my luggage to fix into the limited weight of 23kgs. Dang, it is the only thing I dun like people to see coz it is damn huge and people keep saying... hayooohhh tak lebey limit ke berat beg itu??? Agagaga... I knw. But occayla, I managed to keep it under 23 kgs. But I'm a bit worry about my handcarry luggage. It is supposed to be not more than 7kgs, but... tau aje lar, bila dah boh Corelle, dah boh Pyrex... adoyai, ended-up jadi 10kgs. For now, finger-crossed je lerrr...and ready with $$$ kalau terkena dek pegawai yang fussy. Seriously reminds me of the time when I first came here. The same huge beg with a backpack. But balik, huge luggage, and handcarry luggage, and backpack, and handbag full with things. This is not including my 50kgs stuffs yang dihntr via Jetta cargo tu. Adoyaii... Ni mujur 2 tahun je... If 3 years? 4 years? 6 years? Bankrupt! Agagaggaaa...

When I first came here... I was all alone. I had no idea about Melbourne *ada la study sikit2 pasal Melbourne but not in detail la*. I still remember, I arrived in the morning at Tulamarine International Airport. The arrival hall was abit quiet at the time. Maybe it was very early in the morning. All I cud remember... I was abit blur. Sebab baru bangun tido pun ye gak. Yelah kan 8 hours journey. But more bcoz of... I dunno how to react to the fact that I was not dreaming... and already landed in Melbourne. First time being away *real away* from family for a long time. Dulu gi Jepun pun cuma 2 minggu lebey gitu je. Waiting for the Uni rep to pick me up and send me to Malaysian Hall - stayed there for nearly 2 weeks. And I cud still remember how regret I am coz there was no one I cud ask to take my pic at the airport... Haiyoh. Eena... Eena... dah la sejuk2, berasap bila breathe, jakun sikitla time tu. Ofcoz la wanna take pics kan. And nasib baek I didnt have to wait too long for the Uni rep to pick me up... yelah, dah la sorang2... ntah sapa2 je leh culik aku. Erkkk, ada ke org nak culik makhluk bersaiz besar ni? Hiksss.

It's going to be a veryyyy long story if I wanna tell the whole lot of experience when I first stepped down Melbourne. Blum kesah pacik driver (Uni rep) yang rosakkan tayar luggage aku tu.. blum kesah experience aku duk kat Hall yang buatkan aku tanak dah duk sana.. haa, blum kesah hantu kat hall lagi. Mcm2 laaa... All I can say... it's going to be something that I wont ever forget and I am very thankful to Allah for giving such a precious opportunity to me... I finally achieved my dream to study abroad. Alhamdulillah.

And now... it's the time to leave Melbourne *yer, tunggu flight jemput je nihhh*. Tears? Nop! Who knws, I'll be here again... visiting my sister pulak. My sis dapat scholar JPA utk study kat Australia gaksss.

Bila Eena membebel: 2 years... kejap je rasa! tak sempat cari boyfren pon... hahaha!

Still in Melbennnn

Yuupppsss! I am still in Melbourne... and haven't confirm my flight tix YET! Mum calls me nearly EVERYDAY asking when exactly I'll be flying home and I started to get annoyed *not with my mom* with the admin complex thingy which kept me hold here in Melbourne. Sabo ye Mae.... nnt along balik arrr. Well... not dat I dun like staying here in Melbourne.. but for a poor student like me *poor laa sbb elaun dah tak masuk, kan....* and to stay here, is equal to spending lottssaaaaa moneyysss *see, plural tu*.

After Nazrul, Mazlee already home safely... arrived at Msia last nite.

malee ngan muka seposen, tahan airmata sedey. peserta tersingkir pada minggu ini... hehehe.

pasnih, takde la pic camni lagi ye Lee. Nanti tunang u jeles lakss.. tak pasall!

Leaving me and Akmal, waiting for our turn to be going home. I'm expecting that I'll be flying home before Akmal *owh God, pleaseeee make it soon!*.

2 org budak yg sedang tunggu turn naek kapal terbang... tunggu masa untuk tersingkir.. hiks!

I have emailed USM, called Nina (USM)... climb up and down the SSPS at UniMelb and faculty office. Emailed Nat and Lindsay... and the outcome, turn to be very regretful. Yang pasti, I wont be flying tomorrow. Shoot! Jangan... nanti aku makin malas nak balik, baru tahuuuuu!!~ Sapa nak bertanggungjawab??

Just like Akmal, people start to ask me, when are you leaving for good. Adoyaii... kalau la leh buka talian hayat kan besh. Hikss... Patience everybody. I'll let u guys knw when the time comes ait! But actually, I really wanna fly when everyone is busy and have no time to send me off to Tullamarine Airport. Malas laaa blues2 lak karang. Ahaksss... Dats y I urge USM and UniMelb to settle my things off asap so I can fly during the weekdays. Jessnor dah bagi warning hangat... "berani la nak fly diam2... mmg nak kena cepuk la tu!" adoyai! Takleh ke gitu? Yups, I really dun wan anyone to send me to the airport. Malas betol laaa... hiks!

Bila Eena membebel: Aku dah mula nak tanya kerja kosong kat Airport nihhh... haaa, jangan! tup tup aku jadi stewardess tak pasalll. agagagaga... ada hati!